i watched a friend of mine do different stuff for that guy... they were just friends but i never understood from where did she get the will to care that much.. i heard people asking her different time "do u luv him that much?"... her answer was always "we're just friends.. he is not mine and as long as he is not, then i do not luv him... the luv i carry in my heart is only destined for that person i'll spend the rest of my life with" and she smiled.. she always smiled when we talked about that guy... so one night i was sleeping over at my friend's place and i woke up around 3 am and sat down doing nothin.. i looked at my friend and found the same smile on her face.. the next morning when we woke up my first question was "did u have nice dreams?"... she said " yup.. it was a good sleep"... i smiled and looked at my friend reminding her that i have known her since we both knew no one else but ourselves.. she was the first person i opened to and talked to.. the first person i dreamt with.. i knew her more than anyone else... i told her that she have changed... i have seen her around zillions of guys but it was never like this one and i could bet with my life that she was dreaming about him last night and that for the first time she's not telling me the truth... my friend said may be i have changed, may be i have never been like this before... but the thing is i am not lying to u... its true that i believe wut i have always believed in "u can not luv who is not urs and that the luv in ur heart is only destined for one person, and since he's not mine then the discussion ended, we're friends and i respect the parameters we both did"... so i looked at her questioning "so y r u doing all this if u r not trying to win him, if u r respecting the parameters?"... my friend smiled and told me that she'll explain to me as if i am him... with that most innocent smile on her face she said... :
" I do wut i do cuz it makes me feel better and not cuz i want u to feel me..
i say wut i say, cuz i want to say it and not cuz i want u to hear it...
i wanna make sure that u r ok, cuz i care and not cuz i want u to feel that care...
i smile at u, cuz i want to c u smile back and not cuz i want u to fall in luv with my smile..
i say thank u cuz i want u to say u r welcome and not cuz i want u to think i am polite..
i want to do u all the best, cuz i feel good this way and not cuz i want u to think that i am angle....
I do/say wut i do/say, cuz i love you and never cuz i want you to love me"
"I swear i do not know why.... but thats it... I swear I am respecting all the parameters.. but sometimes this is just it... i know that wutever tomorrow brings things between us will always be this way... even if i find another man who is the one destined for all the love in my heart... things will always be this way... for me it is much bigger than u can comprehend my dearest friend"...
looking at my friend with a big smile on my own face.. i could do nothing but hug her.. and never question about that friend of hers again... as i admit it is much bigger than i can ever comprehend... :)
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