I'm this and that

I know that taking off my veil might make u view me in a different way... may b u’ll love me more…
I know that my dream is even farther with my veil on…
I know that a veiled girl learning to dance, wanting to dance and to do a musical is hard…
I know that many ppl keep some distance till they know me better just cause I cover my hair…
I know I am not properly veiled and that the way I dress is many times impropriate for veil..
I know…. I know and I know… loadz of reasons loads of fights in my head…
But I DO NOT WANT TO TAKE IT OFF..
I admit that many times I do not behave according to it, but at least its something that I can do…
It is not that I look better this way, its that I feel happy wearing it..
I see myself achieving my dreams with the cover my head.. Yes I want to do my musical with the cover on my head, its hard but I wish that ppl would wake up smday and not keep the distance cuz of the way other ppl, dress, look or talk…
I do not want to think each and every time before I act in life …
I agree a veiled girl should respect wut she’s wearing but isn’t she allowed to dream also…

I dream, I dream of falling in love purely, I dream of doing a great Egyptian musical screenplay one day, I dream of an artistic screenplay, I dream of people recognizing the difference in both my characters the one in life and the one who wants heaven one day may be.. I dream of a lot of things and I see my self achieving them in my veil and only I my veil…

Even if it would make you all feel better if I took it off, it won’t make me, cuz I wanna be with it on.. I know that to do these stuff I’ll even be more hated, I know that its not just an outfit, but its an attitude.. it is my attitude in wut I do and who I am.. in trying not to lie, not to be evil, not to jurdge, not to deceive and not to hate…

I admit I might be wrong in wut I dream of or in wut I want to do.. may be they do not go together… but they are both me… I find myself in both and taking one from me would just kill me…so as I said I don’t care, I just don’t… I’m this and that… full stop.