Gratitude..

I was at my friend's place a couple of days ago, i was just passing by to take smthn, i stayed for like half an hour. she had a religious program running on tv. It was talking about gratitude/ “الحمد لله" . They said that we lost our gratitude once we question what we're going through. like when you say “why is this happening to me?” or “اشمعني آنا يا ربي" . This is when everything goes wrong, cuz you have just put urself in a position of questioning, but questioning who “ The Divine” “الله" who for sure you can not be questioning. Then they were explaining the phrase “انا لله و انا اليه راجعون" , we usually here this phrase in funerals or death situations, though it is not only for that. it talks about everything we are and everything we have, its all GOD's property and HE shall give and take from it as HE wants and we should not question. Its like you are given smthn/sm1 to just keep and then you are asked to give it back so would do without arguing as u've never actually owned it. That's the thing, even if you are talking about something that you want really hard but you are not receiving, you can not say “y me, y aren't i receiving this?, is smthn wrong with me?” you can not question cuz only THE OWNER of the property chooses to give it or not, you can only ask politely and more importantly be grateful for all the things that HE have trusted you to keep. :)
Honestly i was one of the people who questioned “y me? or y not me?” smtimes when i was down, I have always know that GOD does everything for the best, but just wanted to understand smthngs. After hearing those words i just knew that i was not supposed to understand/ question or even think about this.. I should just enjoy and take care of the property i am trusted to keep and give thanks for them. and more importantly be grateful.. :D.. so during my last prayer at the day i asked GOD to forgive me for the wrong that i've done and i promised to never do it again or at least try my best not to “توبه"...since the next morning i felt that i was a much happier and beter person and learned to say (especially when a gloomy thought comes to mind) “الحمد لله و انا لله و انا اليه راجعون".... :D... Thank GOD