Veil, or in other words Islamic Head Cover, has been a huge issue during the past few years; wearing it, taking it off, refusing to wear it, obliging it, questioning if its obligation, and overall treating it as a method of judging others. Before I start talking I have to state that I’m only stating a personal opinion and point of view, it has nothing to do with the right way religion said it should be or anything. I am a 21-year-old artist who in a couple of months would celebrate my 7th year wearing veil. I admit that it has not been the easiest decision and of course have suffered from the way other people negatively view it. I admit that I do not wear as I should or may be even the least, but also I admit that this is the only way I could do it at the moment. Most f the society has viewed me in two different ways that I am not, and only few saw me as I am. I have been viewed as a “religious” girl who will not understand open-minded people or won’t be capable of communicating with them, and therefore many opportunities have slipped away from me, whether opportunities as simple as meeting new people or as huge as not being qualified for the job of my dreams. Also due to the way I dress, I have been viewed as a “3’er la2ik” for mo7agbat society, or for knowing or working with people who are “moltazmin” more than me in their outfit, some even see me as a disgrace for what I wear and that I should take it off. While I am neither that nor that, as few saw me, I am a person, an ordinary person, who has personal dreams of being an artist, who took the step of veil when I thought I could and thought I won’t if it was postponed, I accept the difference between me and others, I do what I can to be good, but also cannot help it that I have some wrong deeds, after all I am a human being. A human being, who took a very personal step on her own and put the 7ijab on, and shall not accept being judged because of that.
At many times I thought of falling apart and listening to society and take it, to let both groups see me the way they want. So I would fit into the job of my dreams and agree with others that its better this way. But could never do that, I do not want to, at least not now, its my own personal thing.
At the same time I have seen others take it off, and been accepted and rejected by the same two groups who formerly judged them and me. The funny thing was they are still the same person, nothing changed they just took off some pieces they used to wear, whether they are good or bad they still are, whether they are “motadaineen” or not they still are. I never understood why does it differ that much. It’s ok to feel bad that they are not wearing it, if you believe in 7ijab, or to feel good that they took it off, if you do not believe in it, but its not ok to feel different about the person.
We are all human beings no matter what we wear, whether we wear more or less others will always judge us. Whether you decide to take your 7ijab off or to put it on others will always judge you, not for whom you are but for whom you look like you are. If you want to take it off, do it because you want to, because you do not feel like you are that person veiled and not because society views you wrong or is treating you wrong. Also, if you want to put it on, put it on because you want to and can and not because this way you’ll be viewed as a more religious person. And so I decided to act as I want to act, not as society is telling me, and to look as I am and if people do not understand, well all I can do is hope they will one day.
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